Yay, YAY, YAY!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to tell you how incredibly happy I am that my sweetheart is back home. I saw him come and I just ran and jumped on him. Yes, I jumped on him. lol. I didn't even care that he was in uniform or that I was in a skirt. I went for it. I held on tight and didn't let go for a while. I had on one of those big "statement" necklaces that was kind of digging into my chest, but I didn't care. My baby was back!
The FRG had put together a little snack table for all the guys/girls for when the arrived. Seeing as they hadn't had good food for a few days, it was a nice gesture. Aaron seemed happy to talk and eat, but I'll admit I just wanted him home so we could just be together without a big group of people.
After we got home we just talked and talked and talked. Haha. I am pretty sure neither one of us shut up until we went to bed that night. It was amazing. I missed him so much. It made me realized exactly what I have gotten myself into.
I married the most incredible man. He is strong both physically and spiritually. Listening to him tell me about his experiences from SERE (at least what he could tell me), I realized exactly how amazing he is.
I am so proud of my husband. I couldn't have asked for a better man in my life. He means the world to me and I am so glad and grateful that he decided to use his gifts for the good of all mankind.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Take me back to Manhattan......
Spring Break just ended and I am looking at all the FaceBook statuses and pictures of all my friends who just got back from a week in New York.
*Sigh*
I miss New York City more than anything else from my "old" life. Before I decided to serve a full time mission for my church, I was literally living my dream. I was living in New York auditioning for shows and actually making them! :) However I turned them all down to serve a mission, convinced that the blessings I would receive from serving a mission would be more job opportunities than I could count when I got home. Unfortunately that wasn't the case.
I wish I understood why it wasn't in my plan to become a Broadway Star, especially since it seemed sooo much in my reach. I sincerely thought that because I made the "right" choice in serving a mission, I was guaranteed a spot in the performing world. Most of the time I have come to grips with the fact that there are other things God wants me to do with my life. But when I see my friends doing the things I so desperately want to do, it really breaks my heart and sometimes I wonder why that's fair. I know that God has a plan for me and He only has my best interest and happiness in mind, but it's sooooo hard giving something, that I love so much, up.
And it's not like I'm dying tomorrow (as far as I know), so I understand that there is still so much of my life to live, but I just can't seem to shake this dream. When I hear of professional auditions, my heart aches. I wish I could just move on and be happy with my current situation, but I can't seem to ever move on from the fact that I could have done it. I just know it!
Aaron keeps telling me that we'll make a trip to New York and I know that it will be bittersweet. I will feel so much at home and I will so happy to share all of the things that I love about New York with Aaron. However, I'm sure it'll give me the same feelings as I feel now looking at the pictures of my friends. Heartbroken that I'm not there doing what I always felt I was meant to be doing.
*Sigh*
I miss New York City more than anything else from my "old" life. Before I decided to serve a full time mission for my church, I was literally living my dream. I was living in New York auditioning for shows and actually making them! :) However I turned them all down to serve a mission, convinced that the blessings I would receive from serving a mission would be more job opportunities than I could count when I got home. Unfortunately that wasn't the case.
I wish I understood why it wasn't in my plan to become a Broadway Star, especially since it seemed sooo much in my reach. I sincerely thought that because I made the "right" choice in serving a mission, I was guaranteed a spot in the performing world. Most of the time I have come to grips with the fact that there are other things God wants me to do with my life. But when I see my friends doing the things I so desperately want to do, it really breaks my heart and sometimes I wonder why that's fair. I know that God has a plan for me and He only has my best interest and happiness in mind, but it's sooooo hard giving something, that I love so much, up.
And it's not like I'm dying tomorrow (as far as I know), so I understand that there is still so much of my life to live, but I just can't seem to shake this dream. When I hear of professional auditions, my heart aches. I wish I could just move on and be happy with my current situation, but I can't seem to ever move on from the fact that I could have done it. I just know it!
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